Earlier this year I experienced something for the very first time in my entire life. I was heading to the airport to go on a really incredible trip to Iceland, and I didn't want to leave because even a new experience, a grand adventure and a new perspective couldn't possibly come close to what I was experiencing at home. I was actually finding home. I was putting down some roots and I was falling in love. This trip was an interruption.
Today, once again, I'm flying across the world and I am excited. Seasons have changed and I need to get away for a bit to breath. I need my spirit to be awakened and I need an experience.
I need to be inspired.
I almost always preach "go go go" and I do gain most of my inspiration and perspective from new places, different cultures, wild adventures. But there's something really beautiful about learning to be home and having something/someone to keep you there.
For the majority of my life I've refused to be comfortable. How can you grow when you're not experiencing anything new? How can you gain perspective when every day looks the same?
At some point I got comfortable with being uncomfortable and somehow it made me close minded. I thought you could only be uncomfortable in the unsecured moments in life. The lack of stability and the ability to drop everything and leave. But staying still, building community, falling in love, and finding home can also create a good tension. An un-comfort that is good and healthy and growth!
I always want to stay uncomfortable. I always want to keep growing. I just don't want to limit my uncomfortable to the single category of "always on the go". I'm learning. I'm growing.